A *very real* LIFE UPDATE

by - Sunday, February 24, 2019

Hello hello! Kalina here today :) I feel like it's been a while since I have sat down to write a blog post so I'm very excited to hopefully be getting back into the swing of things!

Today, I thought I would share a little life update! To be completely honest, I've been hesitant to do so because there are so many things going on in my life that very few people know about and making that public is scary. BUT with that said, blogging has always been a great outlet for me and hopefully some of you can relate to what I'm going through.

First off, this past year or so my family has been dealing with a really rough family situation. It's never easy to go through tough times like this but it is especially hard when you live across the world from your family. Both Ivana and I are full time college students so we can't be with our family at this time and it has taken an emotional toll on us. We know there's nothing we can do, especially from here, so we are trying our best to cope but it's definitely not easy. With all that said, Ivana is planning to visit soon so it is comforting to know that I will at least have her here in Lincoln with me for a few days!

And that brings me to my next point. As most of you know, I am currently a freshman at the University of Nebraska and have previously shared some of my highs and lows of college. I had a pretty rough first semester and 100% thought I would transfer but I decided to give the school another chance. I came into second semester with a new attitude and promised myself I would focus on the positive rather than the negative. And that's exactly what I did. I already had amazing friends I met early on in my freshman year and have been so fortunate to meet tons of new friends this semester as well (shoutout to the BEST Knoll 430 groupies, ily 💕). I can without a doubt say that I have had some very memorable experiences that I will never forget. But at the end of the day, I just can't see myself here for 2 more years and I think that's completely okay to admit. I think there is a certain pressure to love your school and for the longest time, I thought I was the problem because I wasn't trying hard enough to enjoy where I was at. But I realized I shouldn't have to force myself to do that. There is SO much that I love about my college experience and my school that I don't take for granted, but at the end of the day, I'm simply not where I'm supposed to be.  When I was making my college decision, I had never experienced college so I didn't know exactly what I was looking for but I can now make a more informed decision.

So, I finally started my transfer applications. I will definitely keep you all updated on my transfer journey and process but I won't say much for now since I have no clue what next year looks like for me and whether I'll be staying where I'm at or moving on. I can tell you that I definitely did not envision ever going through the stress of the college application process again and that it is almost more stressful this time around because I know that even if I do leave Nebraska, there is no guarantee I will have made the correct decision. But I'm trying to stay calm about the situation and enjoy the rest of the year with my friends here! It's crazy that I only have 2 months left of school. It's been a brutal winter here in the Midwest so I can't wait for the weather to warm up again! 

To end this update on a positive note, if there's one thing I hope you walk away from this post with it's this: never be afraid to pursue your own happiness, even if your path is not the same as other people's.

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